Schizotypal Personality Disorder and Creativity
I mentioned in my updated introduction that I have Schizotypal Personality disorder, along with Major Depression and A.D.D. If you have ever seen the movie ‘Taxi Driver’ with Robert De Niro from 1976, his character is a textbook example Schizotypal. I could sit here and describe it all, but I’m not writing a psychology blog. As long as I can remember, I always liked being alone and not around too many people. I was always creating plays and stuff in my head. No one has really been able to understand why I am the way I am. Basically no one knows how to take me. I knew I was different and didn’t understand it myself either. When I had my breakdown in 2011, it was then when I found out how I tick. Psychological testing couldn’t really nail down if I had Asperger’s or Schizotypal personality disorder. A counselor finally said that there is no way I could be an Aspie, since I can hold good conversations. When I described some of my behavior and thought patterns to her, she said I fit more into the Schizotypal realm. Having this along with Major Depression helps me come up with ideas for songs. I have a problem though, I hear the song playing in my head, but can’t seem to translate it onto guitar or keyboards. Thankfully I am friends with a couple of musicians who can get in my head to hear what I am hearing. For me, writing lyrics is like therapy. Whatever I’m feeling can be channeled into words and music as a release. Lately, I have been writing some pretty dark poems and lyrics that would probably freak out some people who know me. I believe that people who have mental illnesses are some of the most creative people out in the world. Some of them take their energy and use it towards creativity.