Thoughts on “In Control” by Nemesea
Back in September, I wrote a blog entry about my thoughts and relation to lyrics from The Quiet Resistance. I am going to do the same thing with their album In Control. In Control was released in 2007
No More- Right out of the gate, this song really caught my attention and I still can’t get enough of it. I honestly get a euphoric high every time I listen to it. The song makes me think of someone who trusted someone, was deceived and is done with the relationship. They tell the other person they are done with them, but that person won’t let them go. Basically what I read into some of it is, “F*ck off, I’m tired of your bullshit!” I have used this song alot while writing my book.
In Control- This song makes me think of someone who was in a controlling relationship or had someone who was driving them insane in the shadows. What I mean by “in the shadows” is a stalker. Revenge came in some form of justice and now it’s time for the controller to get what is due to them. The controlled person is now in control of the other person. Another song I use while I write.
Home- This song makes me think of someone chasing after someone else and getting rejected. They realized that it was useless to chase them just to find happiness. “Tried too hard to make you love me/Fought so hard just to reach you/Now I see it was worthless to think you/Felt the same……” I can completely relate to this line because I had been doing that for the longest time. I eventually caught up to that person and they rejected me again. I’m to a point where I see it’s useless to keep chasing them.
The Way I Feel- This is the VERY FIRST Nemesea song I heard on Spotify! I remember the exact location; in my parents’ kitchen while I was folding my laundry. This song makes me think of a break-up and how hard it is to move on from that person. The first time I broke up with my girlfriend, I just couldn’t move past her, but eventually did.
Lost Inside- I can really relate to this song. I have some dark stuff I hide and am scared to open up to some people what I hide inside. I feel if I tell someone about the pain , they won’t understand it. Alot of times what I hide from others rips my heart open and kills small parts of my emotions slowly everyday.
Remember- This song makes me think about when I was in a relationship with someone many years. I finally woke up one day and realized they were really fake.
Believe- I LOVE this song! It makes me think about those people in my life who said I couldn’t do anything by myself. I tried to get someone’s attention and did some desperate things to gain it. It wasn’t until recently that I realized I need to be myself and show that person I don’t need to conform to the way they say I should be. If that person ever told me they were proud of me, I would ask them where were they when I was working my ass off. I am striving to reach my goals and chase my dreams everyday and I don’t need them bringing me down.
Like The Air- Many times I have felt like I would be better off dead than to face the pain I have gone through and still face. I can relate to the emotions in the song. I’m glad I didn’t die and that I’m still alive today.
Broken- Wow, I could say alot about how I can relate to this song. There are some people currently in my life that have continually hurt and rejected me. They seem to think I’m just some piece of trash that was thrown away and that I don’t matter. They have made my life a living Hell and I regret meeting them. To protect myself, I have to distance myself from them. They have broken me, but I’m a stronger person because of them.
Never- All I can associate with this song is rage. Rage that has built up and is ready to be released. I have a short temper and can experience rage episodes at times. That rage though really is poisonous and not only kills the person who gets it, but kills me as well.